I am at that point.
Is it wrong that having been saddled with more work than one can handle- you finally give up? I believe I have reached that point. After countless relentless hours of giving all I have to it- I finally broke.
I've begged, I've pleaded, I've explained and discussed and it has gotten me nowhere. After almost breaking myself to the point of no return, I was called into a meeting with HR and with my team leader last week. They are unhappy with my unsatisfactory work. After yet again trying to tell them why my work is so unsatisfactory(not only to them but more importantly to ME) I got a PIP. (Personal Improvement Plan) and given until the 28th of the month to bring my performance up to speed.It's most certainly NOT going to happen. Not only did they deny me any relief, they told me my workload is going to increase again significantly.
And you know what? After the initial shock of it(I've only been fired once before and that was my very first job and because of a misunderstanding) and a good cry. I was strangely relieved after talking with my Mere Mortal Hubby.
He assured me that he understands what is going on and that he knows I have been quite unhappy(to put it mildly) in my work situation for a long while and that IF things go south and I'm dismissed, with his salary we can certainly survive until I can find other employment.
So, I have been applying for jobs all week. And will continue to do so. I'm not willing to put my health on the back burner any longer for a company who refuses to take into account the stress they are being shown, time and time again, and refusing to acknowledge.
I'm preparing, Not that I WANT to KEEP the job- as a matter of fact if they dont dismiss me next week at the review I will probably burst into tears and demand to know why NOT- they PROMISED!!! (Seriously, it is that BAD a situation with me now).
No- but because it's not right the way they are going about it.
I fully acknowledge my work is unsatisfactory- I've told them so and the reasons why. One person cannot do the job of 3 and our entire team is being required to do that.
But they cannot keep it up.
We are dropping like flies.
I just want it to be over and done with so I -so WE- can get on to better times.
I'm so DONE with this phase of my life and ready for the good to roll out the red carpet once again.
Times may be sparse for a while- but that is what makes us better, stronger- to be able to go thru the tough times and make it to the better times.
I will not be defeated.
