Thankful For My Blessings....

Things are looking up for this Goddess. I got a bit of good news today. Something seemingly insignificant for most people but for me- it's a Godsend. And no- I'm not ready to share quite yet.

I seem to have gotten my Goddess Mojo back while I was on my Sabbatical.  I feel revived. Stronger- more determined and capable. I came to terms with some truths that I hadn't wanted to deal with.  I have learned a lot about not only myself, but about others that were in my thoughts.

I have learned that life can deal you a heavy hand- and then just as quickly you are dealt a winning hand. And this past month I have been dealt a Royal Flush.  I have learned that a bad situation can indeed turn itself around and become a blessing in disguise.

I have learned that I CAN count on the one person I love most in this world. I learned that he loves me as much as I love him- and I have nothing to be afraid of. He isn't going to cheat on me. He isn't going to leave me. He isn't going to give up on us. If he was going to do any of that- he had plenty of opportunities to do it- especially in the past month. Instead, what I got was him being there every single time I have needed/wanted him. And there was a few of those times- twice when I spiritually needed him, and twice when I physically needed to speak with him. He was there- waiting with his lovely heart, and the perfect words I needed to hear. Advice I wanted, but didn't actually NEED. It was the best feeling in the world to know he is with me- even when we aren't together in the same space....or state- or country, even!

I have a friend, who has helped me thru a few hard times. She taught me how to regain my inner peace and calm when I was in the midst of a mental storm. She showed The Goddess that we ALL are allowed to have doubts about ourselves, it's okay to be weak sometimes, that if you have a shoulder to lean on- you will survive.... and thrive. She was my rock at one of the lowest points of my live and It hink the world of her. I think of her as a Sister Goddess. A sister of the heart.

I have truly been Blesses by the Powers of the Gods.

The Goddess Has Returned

The Goddess has returned. Not only from Sabbatical- but to her former Glory.

I had a wonderful week in Valhala with my Sister Goddesses and other family and friends. The trip there was relatively uneventful....the trip back a nightmare. More on that later.

I think I regained a lot of myself back on my trip. I also think I lost a bit of myself tho.

I reconnected with my stengths- something I hadn't been able to get a grip on since my move to my Mere Mortals homeland. I had felt lost- not quite at home- altho I was comfortable and growing to love it more each day. I still didn't feel quite like I had come to terms with my leaving all I had behind.

Going back made me see that I wasn't completely dependant on my Mere Mortal. No matter where I was in the world- I can still be strong and still be myself-GODDESS. I solved problems on my own. I made my own decisions. I didn't call for help. I fixed things myself. I was strong and found that part of me again.

As the hymn says...
I once was Lost, but now I'm Found...
Was Blind, but now I See.

The Goddess has Returned.

My Mere Mortal seems to need a bit of training however. Our tenth wedding anniversary plans to go to Paris for dinner were  waylaid by the events of my return from Valhalla. However...........My darling MM somehow muddled his thinking and altho I had specifically said I didn't really want to go to Paris for dinner, when he asked what I DID want- I said I only would really like Flowers and a nice dinner out somewhere local. Apparently, he decided not to do that either. So our Milestone Anniversary has passed like a shadow in the night....

I must somehow remedy this situation.

A Return To Valhalla....

Every once in a while, a Goddess must return to her roots.

And this Goddess is returning to her Valhalla in a couple of days. She will be spending time reconnecting with her Demi-god and Demi-goddess and sister Goddesses  for a blissful seven days.

I will be eating, and drinking, and shopping and getting, and giving, much love and adoration.

It will be hard to leave my Mere Mortal(aka My hubby, My God) behind for a week, but he is looking forward to a week on his own as much as this Goddess is looking forward to her time with her family.

I had a frank discussion with my husband about my job situation. He was most understanding about it and suggested I not worry about it until  after my holidays and until the situation becomes unbearable at work.
I had expected him to be vehemently opposed to the idea, much because the job I may be changing to is in the town we just moved from- around sixty miles commuter every day, but it turns out he's very supportive about it. After all he says- It's just a train ride away and as long as the pay is enough for us to still be comfortable and be able to afford our bills and the travel expenses, it won't be a problem. Who knows.....maybe at some point he might change jobs and we might move back to the area, too. Heck, his parents are moving to Spain in two years so maybe we might even be able to buy their house at that point.

But that's far into the future.

Right now, I'm just glad  things are working out the way they are.
One of my best friends(whom I consider a sister) has moved to a new job, has a new man in her life and she is finally happy. I think she may be on her way to a blissfully happy relationship, just like me and my Mere Mortal.
I'm going home to Valhalla to reconnect with my family.
I have the most wonderful husband in the world.
I have a decent job- and the promise of a better one as a possibility in the future.

Life is good.