Feeling Not so Goddess Like....

Yeas, indeed.
Today has been a trial of epic proportions.

It started more than a few nights ago- I've been woken up feeling like someone is sitting on my chest and I wake up quite literally feeling like my head is about to explode from lack of oxygen. I've had a nagging headache since the first time- around a week and a half. I've been advised that it's a visitor from another realm and I need to tell it to go away that I need to rest. Well, I did that . It worked the first night but it was back again last night. I'm at a loss.

Well, that coupled with it's past due time for Aunty Flo's monthly visit- I'm getting all the symptoms except the red tide.

Plus-some of the mere mortals in this world are just too stupid for words some times. Now, I have a sister-friend who may get a bit upset at this post- but I have to have my say. I don't mean to blame her in any way or take anything away from her happiness- that is NOT my intention with this post.

 That being said, here goes....

Some mere mortals just dont GET it.
They blow hot and cold from day to day- sometimes from hour to hour. And they have the balls to call us Goddesses undecisive????
What the everlast Hell is wrong with them? You can't just act all" I really like you and think you're hot" and be up in our tits one day and then completely freeze a Goddess out the next day. Screw that.  If you fucking like a person- you like them. You don't blow hot and cold like that. You woo a Goddess- you try and seduce her with your charms. You must prove your worth to be with a Goddess- just as she must prove her worth AS a Goddess.
 Peter Parkers Uncle said it best-

With Great Power- comes Great Responsibility.

Now, another thing that's been bothering me is this little matter of gift-giving. Now I know that peeps are allowed to have friends of the opposite sex. But there are three things you shouldn't be doing if you are married.
1) You shouldn't be giving opposite sex friends gifts unless it's their birthday or Christmas.
2) You shouldn't be going out ALONE with opposite sex friends.
and obviously 3) You shouldnt be kissing or having sex with them.
Neither is sitting in laps allowed or rubbing on parts of the body other than friendly pats. Stroking body parts is NOT allowed. You shouldn't be discussing your -or THEIR- sex life with each other. That's a betrayal of the worst kind. Talk about it with your same sex friends- but not the opposite sex friends.
Now some may say it doesn't matter what sex a person is to hang together. Fair enough- but why tempt fate? It gives the wrong impression and can lead to things getting out of hand.
I'm lucky that where ever my man is invited- I am too. But that's not always the case. I'm just happy I have a man who I can trust and who tells me and shows me he loves me every single day.  Don't get me wrong- he's not perfect and we have some almighty rows sometimes, but we work it out- and that makes him perfect for ME.

Now the other thing that's driving me around the bend is  my work. Yes- it's a paycheck. a decent one at that. More than I was making in the states for sure, but the work is sooooooooo boring. and Tedious....
And I detest it. I've tried to like it, but it just isn't working for me. I LOATHE going into work every day. If it weren't for a few select people there I would go absolutely bat-shit crazy and run screaming and tearing my hair from the roots as I ran down the road naked.

That would teach them.

Fuck me, but I don't know HOW much longer I can hold out there. I'm praying I can find a job making as much money somewhere before I go postal.

And I hope this awful phase of my Goddess Life passes soon because I am NOT feeling very charitable or likeable at the moment.
I feel downright wrathful and vengeful to be honest.....and nothing is uglier than a vengeful Goddess.

Be Warned.

Signature Colors

Every Goddess has a signature color. Its that one color that makes you feel like you can conquer the world.

I've had several over the years....It used to be what I like to call "Bitch Blue" which is actually a hybrid royal and electric blue.

All lovely examples of dresses I would love to have in Bitch Blue.
 It's a color I'm comfortable in.

Now my Goddess friend, Betty*, her signature color is Hot Mama RED! Lippy, dresses, heels...you name it- this woman has it in RED- in SPADES!

I think she actually HAS the middle one in her closet. That girl can ROCK the RED ANYTHING!!!

My sister's signature color is neon pink. And being olive skinned- she carries  it off to perfection.

Then theres my favorite color now........
the always classic BLACK...

....sometimes I go white or silver too.

 My point is....if you dont have a signature color- find yours....and use it to your advantage.

Goddess Style

Saturday my Mere Mortal and I went into a local village for the day.

I was looking at the locals....there are a few Goddettes out there. There was one girl in particular. She looked to be about 16. Maybe a year younger. She had on a black leather jacket,  a black top- very non descript when you looked closely- black tights or leggings- I couldn't really tell which- combat boots, and a black chiffon hi-low skirt.

Now normally, That look would have been something I considered completely GOTH on a goddette that young, but this child- she was a true Goddess in the making. She held her head up and OWNED that look.

That's true Goddess Attitude.
You can wear ANYTHING- any outfit- and if you have the confidence to hold your head up and wear IT rather than it wearing YOU- you have Goddess Attitude.

You just have to hold your head high , have confidence and BELIEVE that you look totally awesome in any outfit.
Add a few accessories, do your makeup- or dont- as you see fit- and make the outfit YOURS.

STRIIIIIIKE TWO

Okay, I know it was him tyring to being jokie.....but when I said I can now pull off my boots without having to unzip them.....the appropriate response would NOT be..."Yeah? It's AMAZING how they stretch out by the end of the day."

The Goddess.
 Is definately.
 NOT amused.

The Opposite Side of the Coin

As a Goddess, you have fabulous days.........

But then, occasionally, you have the opposite side of the coin.

Last night was one of those for me.

My man and I were sitting after having a lovely meal together. He was on his laptop and I was bored. Nothing on TV...my workout was complete.... and I was feeling pretty good. So I decided to have a bit of fun.

I looked over at him, and when I caught his attention, I smiled a mischevious smile, and gave my head a little toss and rolled my eyes over towards the bedroom.......it's my little code for I'm in the mood with out having to actually say it out loud.
He looked at me and half grinned and went back to his laptop.
Hmmmm........

So I did it again.

And he said "NO. I'm don't want to." And he sounded pretty exasperated.
Now usually, I would be a bit disappointed and wait til the next day. But, it's been over a week and it's right before my Cycle, so I'm REALLY hormonal- and Horney, more to the point.
So I tried again.

 And this time when he said no- I said  "Please....." Oh, come on sweetie, just give in and I'll leave you alone for a few days."
I could say this in utter honesty because I know TOTM is coming and I won't really feel like it with tummy cramps and everything messy going on.....
And he said" No- and you won't, cause last time I gave in you gave me the code look every 15 minutes for the next two days.".....and went back his laptop.

I was stunned....speechless.
And I went I went to the bathroom and just SOBBED. I was absolutely heartbroken. It hurt so much to hear him say it that way. Like me loving my husband and wanting to make love with him was a BAD thing...or an INCONVENIENCE.
I know I shouldn't liken it to anything from a past relationship because he is nothing LIKE any man I've been in a relationship with before, but there was a certain Valentines Day Incident in the past with a certain other person that last nights comment just brought back....and that's something I NEVER EVER thought would happen.

I never thought my man would ever make me feel that ....well, .........undesirable.
I know it's probably not how he meant for it to sound... But it did....and it REALLY hurts.

 Well, Goddesses have their limits too. So, out of his mouth- into Gods Ear. Or as Picard would say...Make it So.

When he wants loving-when he feels like it- he will now be the one to instigate it.
Goddesses do not BEG.

Take It and RUN With It.

How do you get Goddess Confidence?

How many times have I been asked this.......about a hundred thousand.

The trick, my darlings, is to take your compliments and run with them. If someone says you look stunning in an outfit, you sweetly accept the compliment and REMEMBER it.
For example-The other day I was at work and a few of us was standing around having a bit of a chat on break. The Security Guy said something and I chimed in with a pretty damn annoying example of what we was discussing and we all laughed. I was deliberately trying to get something stirred up and told the guys..."See, when he sees me coming I bet he's thinking Oh Damn- she's going to ruin my day!!!..." But to my surprise and absolute delight- he said "Actually, it's you and people LIKE you that actually MAKE my day so much easier, Elena!!" And a couple of the other guys chimed in agreeing with him.
 I said in my sweetest voice"Awww- y'all so SWEET!!!!" and smiled and walked back in to my job.

When my Goddess Friend (I really should come up with a code-name for all these people I'll be talking about on a regular Basis) tells me that I really DO suit a certain shade of lipstick that I previously hadn't worn, I do the same thing. I take a long look at myself and try to see what they are seeing in me.

When my mere mortal tells me that he can see I'm losing weight and that it looks good on me-I try to do something extra special for him for noticing and for letting me KNOW he cares.

I think we have to LOOK deep inside ourselves for our Inner Goddess. We don't really see the good in us that others do. But if we look deep enough, we find it. And we have to act accordingly.

Just remember- there is a time and place for everything. 

Little Red Corvette.....

Today I acted and FELT like a true Goddess again. I was in work and had worn a bit of a risky outfit. I needed  a bit of a pick me up- so instead of wearing my usual office wear- I put on my new black yoga pants,(already a bit loose on me and I haven't had them but a month and this was the FIRST time I had worn them!!!) and paired them with black leather knee boots with criss-crossing straps and buckles, a sleeveless drape neck coral top and a  long, water-fall, black cardigan.

Put on my rum raisin red lipstick over the ruby red lipstick, mascara and a bit of powder- and walked into the office with my head up, stomach in, and boobs in power mode.

Maybe it wasn't the most sophisticated outfit to wear- but it defo made me FEEL like a million bucks!!!

I really only have one actual GF at work. And THAT little lady can ROCK an outfit!! She's only 5'4, I think she said- but she wears hawt stilettos almost without fail! Her calf muscles are AWESOME and would put Olympians to shame!

She has a Goddess Attitude. Wait- let me clarify that......she OUTWARDLY has a Goddess Attitude. I think inside- maybe she isn't so sure she's truly the Goddess she is. But her True Goddess Confidence will be firmly in place VERY soon.

Right now- she's a Little Red Corvette...but when she gains that TRUE Goddess Confidence- she will be a Sleek Fiery Red Ferrari!!!!

I have no problems in that area. I know I am Goddess. It's become a way of life for me. I did lose sight of her for a couple years when I first moved to this country. Everything was strange and new- I didnt know how to dress- what to say...half the time I didnt understand a quarter of the things coming out of these peoples mouths.......but a few months ago- I sat myself down and thought about how much I missed BEING a Goddess- having the confidence to do whatever I wanted and not caring a whit what anyone else thought about me. I wanted to BE that Goddess again....and so I became her again.

I still have a couple of things to work on before I can strut as a Goddess and reclaim the title to the fullest- but I'm back ....to stay.

Stay Tuned- it will happen for both me and my Little Red Corvette.

Goddess Confidence......

Hello again.

For me- it's all about the confidence... and knowing the situation. I was brought up in the deep South of the USA. Where girls become either Beauty Queens or Trailer Trash Princesses. I took the different path and became a Goddess.

 Todays topic-Goddess confidence. I like to call it a Quiet Confidence. Every Goddess has it. She doesn't have to beg or plead for anything- she just knows it will come to her if she wants it badly enough. No need for drama or showing off.That's not the Goddess way- altho, on occasion,  a bit of showboating might be called for to put someone in their place.

I don't always dress to the nines. But I dress to feel as if I own the world. I KNOW what's appropriate for wearing to any given function... but rarely do I actually conform. I like to stand out. To grab the attention of eveyone there. Not in a jumping up and down "LOOK AT ME" kind of way, but in a way that when I walk into a room- everyone says-"She's Here." Or "That's Her."

As I like to say(out loud and with a huge smile)- "I Have Arrived- Let The Party Begin".

Don't worry ladies- I'm not out to steal anyones man- I have the perfect one already. Well, perfect for ME, anyway. Usually I just like to sit back and enjoy the show, but when I want something, I want to get it right then and there.  And if you don't want to get it for me- there is usually someone around that's more than willing to get it for me and have me grace THEM with my attention.
Goddesses give off an aoura that makes people WANT to be near them and please them. And Goddesses are always appreciative of them and their attentions.

What's the saying........always leave them wanting more?.......

In a nutshell.

The Words Of A Goddess

Every woman has a Goddess hidden within her. It's only thru her own power that she can bring the Goddess out of hiding and bare her soul.

I am Elena Leshelle and I found my inner Goddess years ago. A few select friends know my inner Goddess.

I think it's time I unleashed her on the rest of the world.