The Lone Goddess......

My Mere Mortal and I went out last night and had a few drinks with a few of our workmates. Actually, I should say FORMER workmates, because the only ones still working for the company is MM and myself. Everyone else has moved on to other places. It just isn't the same without those guys there either.

I was the lone Goddess in the group- and that didn't bother me even a tiny bit. I've always gotten along better with a group of guys than in a group of girls. I guess it comes from always working in an occupation that is generally male dominated. Law enforcement, Logistics...mostly male employees.

Once they figure out that I'm not easily offended by their discussions on various things, I'm usually looked at as one of the guys. They were all cutting up last night about a few things and when I didn't blink at their topics of discussion and told them to cut out apologising for a few words  they said, they relaxed. They were all kind of open mouthed when I threw out a couple of lines to join in the discussions tho- even my MM- and he's used to me being obnoxiously blatant about EVERYTHING. Usually, in a group, I will add a remark or two agreeing or disagreeing about something if I can think of something witty or relevant to add, but for me to come out with something that's just as obnoxious and blatant as they do- that rarely happens. It's just not me- not Goddess-like.
 But last night during the discussion about sex(namely blow jobs) MM made a comment that took me by surprise and rather than sit back and smile like I usually do- what popped into my head came out of my mouth.
It left them all slack jawed and as soon as it was out of my mouth I FELT like clapping my hand over my mouth and covering my face.....what I DID was smile, sit back in my chair, raise my eye-brow and take another long drink.
Goddess Attitude....never let em see you sweat.I mean Glisten....Goddesses don't sweat- we Glisten.

After sitting there in the dead pin-drop silence for about 15 seconds, one of the guys recovered enough to finally say-"That was entirely TMI.....!!"
I just looked at them, arched my eyebrow again, took out my lips gloss and started applying it, and said- "Look- y'all are the ones who started the conversation- I just added my two cents worth- if you didn't want to hear comments from everyone- maybe you shouldn't discuss them in the open like that. " Put the lid back on the lip gloss, snapped shut my compact and dropped them back on my bag, sat back and took another sip of my Vodka and Apple juice. And smiled sweetly at them all.

They all laughed and  the night continued.
Whew- dodged a bullet on that one.

It was a smallish group- and things were pretty subdued last night.
Even more so after I got a text from my very best friend. We met at work and me and this lady just CLICKED from the get-go. The very first time I met her, I was in a cast from breaking my foot, and the second she walked up I noticed her eyes. OMG- she has the LOVELIEST crystal clear cat green eyes I have ever seen. And she wears make-up the way it should be, and she's curvy and has gorgeous white teeth that just blind you when she smiles that beautiful smile of hers. Yeah- I have a bit of a girl-crush on her because she's all the things I'm trying to be. Smart, pretty, friendly, smart dresser, independent, confident.......

I've been trying to get her to let me take some photos of her. I'm a bit of a camera buff and I'm trying to get more experience in taking portraits and am interested in starting to do some Boudoir and a bit of pin-up type shots- but she just doesn't like cameras. Period.  She is so camera shy and I cannot for the life of me see why. She won't even let me do head and shoulders shots of her and she honestly has one of the loveliest and most interesting faces I have ever seen. And for that not to be photographed just makes me feel sad for the world.

Someday.

Anyway, she has been offered a position in another company...not just a job, mind you...a POSITION. HUGE difference in the two. Job- work for pay, be bored to tears every day, go home to relax, on and on and on and on........... Position-Be in charge- get paid well- love going in every day because you ENJOY what you're doing.

I feel I know her so well and what is good for her and this new position defo would be a change for the better for her in SOOOOO many ways. And yet, I'm heartbroken. She is my sanity in that boring place we work in. We lunch together as often as our schedules allow-  we hug each other every DAY. She's only other human (other than my Mere Mortal) that I actually physically touch every day. She and I interact more every day than me and my Mere Mortal do- and he works there too. She's my best friend in a country where I have but one other girl I feel close enough to to call a friend. And I am going to miss her so much because I know for a fact she will take this position. She would be crazy to NOT take it and my Bestie is a very intelligent woman.

Yes, I know we can and will still see each other outside work like we do now. But things just aren't going to be the same. When she leaves,I will once again be the Lone Goddess in a company full of idiotic, backstabbing, trash talking, undeserving of my friendship, females.- and I will miss her sweet company and smiling face.

So many changes.  But I shall overcome...


I.
Am.
GODDESS.

Goddess Rules,
Elena xxx